Let A Miracle Happen

By Aletha Jane Lindstrom

"There's a new student waiting in your room," my principal
announced, hurrying past me on the stairs. "Name's Mary. I need to
talk to you about her. Stop in the office later."
I nodded and glanced down at the packs of pink, red and white paper,
and the jars of paste and boxes of scissors I held in my
arms. "Fine," I said. "I've just come from the supply room. We're
making valentine envelopes this morning. It'll be a good way for her
to get acquainted."
This was my third year of teaching fourth-graders, but I was already
aware how much they loved Valentine's Day (now just a week away),
and making these bright containers to tape to the
fronts of their desks was a favorite activity. Mary would surely be
caught up in the excitement and be chatting cheerfully with new
friends before the project was finished. Humming to myself, I
continued up the stairs.
I didn't see her at first. She was sitting in the back of the room
with her hands folded in her lap. Her head was down and long, light-
brown hair fell forward, caressing the softly shadowed cheeks.
"Welcome, Mary," I said. "I'm so glad you'll be in our room. And
this morning you can make an envelope to hold your valentines for
our party on Valentine's Day."
No response. Had she heard me?
"Mary," I said again, slowly and distinctly.
She raised her head and looked into my eyes. The smile on my face
froze. A chill went through me and I stood motionless. The eyes in
that sweet, little-girl face were strangely empty - as if the
owner of a house had drawn the blinds and gone away. Once before I
had seen such eyes: They had belonged to an inmate of a mental
institution, one I'd visited as a college student. "She's found life
unendurable," the resident psychiatrist had explained, "so she's
retreated from the world." She had, he went on, killed her husband
in a fit of insane jealousy.
But this child - she could have been my own small, lovable niece
except for those blank, desolate eyes. Dear God, I thought, what
horror has entered the life of this innocent little girl?
I longed to take her in my arms and hug the hurt away. Instead, I
pulled books from the shelf behind her and placed them in her
lap. "Here are texts you'll be using, Mary. Would you like to
look at them?" Mechanically, she opened each book, closed it and
resumed her former position.
The bell rang then, and the children burst in on a wave of cold,
snowy air. When they saw the valentine materials on my desk, they
bubbled with excitement.
There was little time to worry about Mary that first hour. I took
attendance, settled Mary into her new desk and introduced her.
The children seemed subdued and confused when she failed to
acknowledge the introduction or even raise her head.
Quickly, in order to divert them, I distributed materials for the
envelopes and suggested ways to construct and decorate them. I
placed materials on Mary's desk, too, and asked Kristie, her nearest
neighbor, to offer help.
With the children happily engrossed, I escaped to the office.
"Sit down," my principal said, "and I'll fill you in." The child,
she said, had been very close to her mother, living alone with her
in a Detroit suburb. One night, several weeks ago, someone had
broken into their home and shot and killed the mother in Mary's
presence. Mary escaped, screaming, to a neighbor's. Then the child
went into shock. She hadn't cried or mentioned her
mother since.
The principal sighed and then went on. "Authorities sent her here to
live with her only relative - a married sister. The sister enrolled
Mary this morning. I'm afraid we'll get little help from her. She's
divorced, with three small children to support. Mary is just one
more responsibility."
"But what can I do?" I stammered. "I've never known a child like
this before." I felt so inadequate.
"Give her love," she suggested, "lots and lots of love. She's lost
so much. There's prayer, too - and faith, faith that will make her a
normal little girl again if you just don't lose hope."
I returned to my room to discover that the children were already
shunning this "different" child. Not that Mary noticed. Even kindly
little Kristie looked affronted. "She won't even try," she told me.
I sent a note to the principal to remove Mary from the room for a
short time. I needed to enlist the children's help before recess,
before they could taunt her about being "different."
"Mary's been hurt badly," I explained gently, "and she's so quiet
because she's afraid she'll be hurt again. You see, her mother just
died, and there's no one else who loves her. You must be
very patient and understanding. It may be a long time before she's
ready to laugh and join in your games, but you can do a lot to help
her."
Bless all children. How loving they can be once they understand.
On Valentine's Day, Mary's envelope overflowed. She looked at each
card without comment and replaced it in her container. She didn't
take them home, but at least she looked at them.
She arrived at school insufficiently dressed for the bitterly cold
weather. Her raw, chapped hands - without mittens - cracked and
bled. Although she seemed oblivious to sore hands and the cold, I
sewed buttons on her thin coat, and the children brought caps,
scarves, sweaters and mittens. Kristie, like a little mother, helped
Mary bundle up before she went outdoors, and she
insisted on walking to and from school with her.
In spite of our efforts, we seemed to be getting no closer to Mary
as the cold, dreary March days dragged by. Even my faith was wearing
thin. My heart ached so desperately, wanting this child
to come alive, to be aware of the beauty the wonder, the fun - and,
yes - even the pain of living.
Dear God, I prayed, please let one small miracle happen. She needs
it so desperately.
Then on a late March day, one of the boys excitedly reported a robin
in the schoolyard. We flocked to the window to see it.
"Spring's here!" the children cried. "Let's make a flower border for
the room!"
Why not? I thought. Anything to lift our spirits. This time the
papers we selected were beautiful pastel colors - with brown strips
to weave into baskets. I showed the children how to weave the
baskets and how to fashion all the flowers we welcome in early
spring. Remembering the valentine incident, I expected nothing from
Mary; nevertheless, I placed the beautifully colored papers on her
desk and encouraged her to try. Then I left the children to do their
own creating, and I spent the next half-hour sorting scraps of paper
at the back of the room.
Suddenly, Kristie came hurrying to me, her face aglow. "Come see
Mary's basket," she exclaimed. "It's so pretty! You'll never believe
it!"
I caught my breath at its beauty. The gently curled petals of
hyacinths, the daffodils' fluted cups, skillfully fashioned crocuses
and violets - work one would expect from a child much older.
"Mary," I said. "This is beautiful. How did you ever manage?"
She looked at me with the shining eyes of any normal little girl.
"My mother loved flowers," she said simply. "She had all of these
growing in our garden."
Thank you, God, I said silently. You've given us the miracle. I
knelt and put my arms around the child. Then the tears came, slowly
at first, but soon she was sobbing her heart out against my
shoulder. The other children had tears in their eyes, too, but
theirs - like mine - were tears of joy.
We fastened her basket in the very center of the border at the front
of the room. It remained there until school ended in June.
On the last day, Mary held it carefully as she carried it out the
door. Then she came running back, pulled a crocus from her basket
and handed it to me. "This is for you," she said, and she gave me a
hug and a kiss.
Mary moved away that summer. I lost track of her, but I'll never
forget her. And I know God is caring for her.
I've kept the crocus in my desk ever since - just to remind me of
Mary and of the enduring power of love and faith.